Letter April '25

Hey, I just want to get some thoughts out again - I was using my brain one day and I kind of discovered that if I am going to make an impact in life then just being very very honest and genuine might be the way to do it. Time to yap : )

I love when I find a moment of peace- Just finding peace in a simple fact, or a certain piece of nature.

When everything becomes too much, I have decided that I have a plan to find peace no matter what.

If I lose my eyesight, I'll listen to songs,

if I lose my hearing, I'll take refuge in whatever have left.

If I lose everything, my senses, my memory, my health, I will try to breathe.

I will always have something to get me through this.

I tell my partner my thoughts daily and in great, stressful detail. I've been kind of disconnected from life recently and especially people. Everyone seems distant from me and it's hard to trust most people at this point and time - even seeing families makes me feel weird - Any slight sign of child neglect scares me: Kids being next to roads, kids being exposed to smoke, etc.

I am quite sure that the feeling of isolation will turn out to be a good learning experience and tool as time goes on, tho.

I guess every problem that truly hurts me comes down to child exploitation of some kind. It's fine if consenting adults destroy their lives and do risky things, but forcing your horrible life onto a very young person, that becomes everyone's problem.

We have to keep doing something about this. We cannot be quiet. This is something we should all agree on. We all have our own addictions (sometimes even like 5 or more addictions), mental illnesses, reasons we hate ourselves or others, but we need to fucking care about the people who were brought into this dangerous Earth who cannot do everything for themselves.

I can't stop thinking about the night sky - I think about how a fuller and fuller picture is revealed in the sky as you go further into darker and less light polluted areas (Or as I'm learning recently - areas higher in elevation too)

There is indeed a full picture to be found - the view of the universe, which is different than just the 40 stars visible in most regular city areas. It's humbling and beautiful. Those are exactly the things that remind me how truly important life is, from the miracle of eyesight to every good memory. Please care about our night skies as well, because dark and starry skies are important for lots of animals as well as for humans to be able to appreciate our world in that unique way.

I appreciate you, and all the things we've done, and I hope I will soon feel connected to people again.